I discovered (with a little help from my friend) a really good TV-series Being Erica.
It's basically exactly the sort of stuff that suits me because the main character Erica Strange is about my age and has quite many similar issues (read: issues with the past) and, what is most important, the music in the series is exactly the sort of music I used to listen to when I was a teenager and when I went to university.
So, you probably wonder, why I called my entry "choices". It's because the series is all about choices - I hope I'm not giving away too much of the plot by saying that Erica meets a "therapist" in a difficult moment in her life and the so-called therapist has her write down a list of regrets. Her list is really long. He then turns up at most inconvenient times in her life and makes her go back in time to make some things right - so that she wouldn't have these regrets. I can say that some of these help her but some of the others just mess things up a bit more. Which means that it's a wonderful show to watch. It's kind of "woman thing" though, so I wouldn't really perhaps recommend it to Pablo but you never know - he might even like it.
I was just thinking that I'm happy that I wouldn't have such a long list of regrets that I could write down off the top of my head. I have mainly just one - not taking an opportunity to do something really fun together with a person who was not there anymore about a month later.
In order to fight this feeling regret - I cannot go back and fix things - I've decided to take every opportunity I can to show the people who are there and care about me that I do love them and I won't invent reasons like "sorry, I have to play with my llamas" or "talk to my pet plants" to get out of meeting someone who wants to meet me or do something together.
I also think that choosing NOT to leave any unfinished business in your wake is a good idea - honesty might hurt (yourself or somebody else) but we have to be true to ourselves, right?
I called my "mother-in-law" and she was really happy that I did. I think she understands me the best in the whole world when it comes to the one regret that I have. I just have to come to terms with this one thing and the whole world will open up and greet me. Right?
It's basically exactly the sort of stuff that suits me because the main character Erica Strange is about my age and has quite many similar issues (read: issues with the past) and, what is most important, the music in the series is exactly the sort of music I used to listen to when I was a teenager and when I went to university.
So, you probably wonder, why I called my entry "choices". It's because the series is all about choices - I hope I'm not giving away too much of the plot by saying that Erica meets a "therapist" in a difficult moment in her life and the so-called therapist has her write down a list of regrets. Her list is really long. He then turns up at most inconvenient times in her life and makes her go back in time to make some things right - so that she wouldn't have these regrets. I can say that some of these help her but some of the others just mess things up a bit more. Which means that it's a wonderful show to watch. It's kind of "woman thing" though, so I wouldn't really perhaps recommend it to Pablo but you never know - he might even like it.
I was just thinking that I'm happy that I wouldn't have such a long list of regrets that I could write down off the top of my head. I have mainly just one - not taking an opportunity to do something really fun together with a person who was not there anymore about a month later.
In order to fight this feeling regret - I cannot go back and fix things - I've decided to take every opportunity I can to show the people who are there and care about me that I do love them and I won't invent reasons like "sorry, I have to play with my llamas" or "talk to my pet plants" to get out of meeting someone who wants to meet me or do something together.
I also think that choosing NOT to leave any unfinished business in your wake is a good idea - honesty might hurt (yourself or somebody else) but we have to be true to ourselves, right?
I called my "mother-in-law" and she was really happy that I did. I think she understands me the best in the whole world when it comes to the one regret that I have. I just have to come to terms with this one thing and the whole world will open up and greet me. Right?
Aww... I think I happened to see one of the episodes of the series last weekend. I really like your ideas :) And I wish you could let go of this unfinished business...
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